Defining Me – Part 1: Andrew Eric King, Andy, Drew, Long Socks, Ginga, Ging, Hurricane, Warlock…

I created this blog off the back off two others I had started for two separate reasons. The first was to have a space to moan and rant about the world around me. The other to talk about health, fitness and nutrition based issues, something that is of great interest to me. However, as these topics are a source of a lot of my moaning and ranting, I decided to merge the two. So here we are.

Having posted on a few topics and written a number of drafts on my previous blogs, I found it really satisfying and addictive writing about my thoughts. I think this is for two main reasons. Firstly, I think I have a decent level of intellect (by this I mean I am able to rationalise and apply knowledge objectively) but my brain does seem to process my thoughts in an incoherent order. Which means I tend to just have lots of ideas/thoughts flying around and it’s hard to pin them down. Hence, writing them has really helped. Secondly, writing and ordering my thoughts has helped me understand me. For the past 12 months approximately, I have had varying levels of depression. Granted I believe that depression is over diagnosed and unnecessarily medicated in a lot of cases (probably including mine) but suffice it to say, I wasn’t a happy chapy.

One of the thoughts I had during that time was a lack of identity. Not feeling like I had anything to separate myself from any other human being, made me feel worthless. Among some other irrational concerns the joys of that state of mind brought me, it was this that bothered me the most. Over the past two months I have seen myself returning to normality and I attribute this to my new found sense of identity. While it remains by no means clear and I doubt it ever will, my views on the world, humanity and existence have become much more distinct. So as the thoughts appear in my brain, the deep ones, the funny ones, the useless ones and as I see things unfold around me as I grow older and wiser – I shall immortalise them here so if my identity is ever in question, I need look no further.

So who is Andrew Eric King, Andy, Drew, Long Socks, Ginga, Ging, Hurricane, Warlock and any other nickname I have yet to be given, I shall try to continue to answer that on this blog, not for you – for me and the needs of my sanity.